Yeah, thats kinda the point. Thats why I called this post: “now what?” I mean, knowing the past is helpful, but only to the point.
As for your personal situation, I’d say that you are torturing yourself being in that situation. I’d leave it asap, move the house or something. As for the girls, i’m with you on this one. I had the same situation in the past. My realisation was that I became so attached because I didn’t have options. After I started to go out more, talk to more girls, and eventually finding someone else, I completely forgot about my crush and was able to function properly on an emotional level. Not sure how this all is realistic for you and obviously you can’t change it overnight, but this is my happiness advice to you 😉